For what it’s worth

For what it is worth it is really hard to keep up with writing and making sure that all of this is posted every day. I have been trying to do this for a while now. It is hard for me to keep up with writing and working and such things. I know it is not an excuse but it is what I am dealing with. I hope I didn’t let anyone down. I am doing my best to work through all of this and keep up with my writing. I know that I can do this with a little scheduling and work.

My classes are forcing me to work on this and try and make a schedule for myself every day. I can do this and write every day to make sure that I keep up with my schedule. I’m sorry for ranting and making no sense. I just wanted to put it out there that I am trying, but it is hard for me right now. Now excuses just letting you know what I am working on. Thank you for letting me breathe a little bit.

Journal # 7

Hello friend,

I haven’t written in you for a long time I know, but I have been swamped I promise. I thought that I loved Tyler and he showed me a side of him that I didn’t appreciate. He tried to hit me and I punched him in the face and ran. I got on Handsome and rode for a long time. You were not in the bag that I took, but I wanted to write in you so badly. I needed you at that moment. I could have told you how I felt in that particular moment. I feel now that I may have over reacted by punching him.

I am not sure that he actually tried to hit me. I thought that was what he was doing. Maybe he wasn’t I need to call him and ask what happened. What if he doesn’t want to talk to me? I’ll apologize by making him dinner. Who am I kidding I can’t cook? I will pick up fast food and wear something sexy. That stuff works right?

Ok. I am calling him now. I will let you know what he says. Hang on for a few minutes. Guess what he answered, and he wants to see me. I am nervous. I am going to get dressed and go see him. I will let you know what happens when I get back tomorrow morning. Thank you for listening to me my dear journal, my friend.